yeap, its been a while.

ive been in and out of bootcamp. that changed my life. pushed me even deeper into this fitness pit and im loving that. im currently out of that for now. just couldnt find the time and energy to do it (yes, i generally finish work at 12, i need my rest). unfortunately, the lame excuse of "too busy with work" became reality. i am one of those people. i succumbed to work and slave myself, ignoring all the things that i practiced and preached to others before.

however, after the first day of hari raya, i just told myself, if i am able to do it before, i surely can have that repeated. it might not be me going gaga over dumbells, weight plates and all things gym-y, nope. not this time. i have a new goal.

i. just. want. to. run.

and yes, i have a marathon in mind. but for now, ill take things easy. ill just jog and progressively expand my horizon from there.

i was too inspired, after months of being miserable and unhealthy. the one thing that really got me inspired to run, aside from all the youtubes, magazine articles, internet pieces and all that was when i saw Opstupe ran with his wife somewhere along the roads near the hartamas mosque. that sealed the deal. i was on my to a buka-puasa gathering at a friend's place. i shouted quietly in my heart "I WANT TO RUN!"

i kept to my words. second day raya and im already running. sure, a turtle can beat me at that moment... but competing with myself (and not to the old uncle who passed me several times or to the teen girl who made me feel like im a sloth) has definitely made me a better runner compared to that first run.

here's to more running. cheers!!! (finally got myself a proper running shoe, woohoo!!)

I Dare Myself To Dream

I apologize to myself (and whoever that has been reading this) for the lack of updates whatsoever here. I got caught up with work (snore, yawn). I lost some mass, and its visible especially the chest area. And Im beginning to consume stuff I dont usually swallow (crackers, cookies... YIKES!) and had one dinner way past 8 (alexis burger, tasty, but not for frequent fix) but thinking back, its not THAT bad. Theres always a reminder/hint/motivational tool everywhere I go. So thats enough to glue me back to reality.

Ok, Im lost reading what I wrote.

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Harley Pasternak & Bob Harper. Discovered these two from tube watching. Pasternak's whipped Halle Berry towards hotness-dom for Catwoman and Harper got his exposure through The Biggest Loser. Read more on these two, and youtube em. These are some of the many people I aspire to be and look up to.

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*Thanks to Afiq, I realized that I am starting to use fitness as a reason to achieve vanity, as opposed to being healthy. Nice reality slap there brother. I thank you from the bottom of my heart, and Im not writing this in a sarcastic mood. Really.

“Don't be pushed by your problems. Be led by your dreams.”- anonymous