Not going to gym is taking it's toll on me. Not only I am moody these days (sometimes depressed) but I am also slowly putting weight and storing fat! Yes, call me an anorexic blondie and whatnot, but that's the truth.

Was cleaning my folders here in the office's computer and saw some pictures from last year's trip to Bangkok. I was thinner back then... although not fit, but still. And since the past few weeks has been crazy (been staying in the office till late in the morning), running before work seems like a crazy idea. Few days after I posted the last post, I stopped running. I mean if reaching home is around 2 am, I don't expect myself to wake up at 6 to run... I mean I can, but I bet I can't focus much at work. Bloody shit.

I hope tomorrow (or this week) I will start running again. Just got over one huge ass dateline and although there's another one coming soon (double project this month) I think I have to rebel a bit and just fucking do it. Sleeping early for the past two days has been hard for me. I need to reset my biological clock and hopefully tonight luck will be on my side. And by tonight I mean after a dinner with colleague...

Oh gosh... outing with peeps too is making me nuts. Eating out itself is a bad thing for me. It's fun and good and all, bonding and shit. But having no control sucks. Control as in it's hard to control of what will end up on my plate (economy rice is a different case). And I am already suffering from a lighter wallet, which caused me to visit the ATM more and more... (I spend like a rich man's son.) I already kill the part of me who likes to eat shitty things, but the "I-hate-waste" part of me is still here. Occasionaly I can just say no, but sometimes, I'll end up eating whatever that was offered to me (manners, bad to reject no?). BAD! And others normally are not bothered with quality food... so yeah. Now I remember, being anti-social isn't not a bad thing at all. I mean, I save cash (not that I'm a cheapskate), I got more time to do other stuff (working out perhaps... or read) and also I don't give fat an easy way to enter my temple (the body) easily! I do indulge... it's crazy to just be proper all the way, but it's getting out of hand nowadays. I need to fix this. Pronto!

Will do: Calisthenic exercises. Yep, need to redo what I abandoned for so long. It's time.
Will do: Jog in the morning.
Will do: Lessen coffee drinking in the evening.

I wanted to put another quote, but I'm pretty much motivated with whatever I posted before.

Ciao!